Do you have that one thing that you do when your mental health is A-ok? Like if you subconsciously find yourself doing that, you make a mental note that all's good at this particular moment? I do. Yeah, I could have cut to the chase and said that, but how else do I keep you engaged/pretend to care? Jokes man, I jokes.
So if I'm making senseless videos or have an urgent feeling to write down something and it just flows, then that's how you know I'm doing ok. When I'm not doing this, there's something that's bothering me, but I may not know what that is.
I think I became THIS introspective about myself after depression him. Since then I've been (consciously or otherwise) trying to note my actions and thoughts and make sense of them. I'm not ranting,just rambling. Because today, I've told myself "I will write".
Back to that food page, I started it in the middle of the pandemic
.....*this presentation has been briefly interrupted in order to accomodate this commentary about the world*......
Oh yea, so since I last popped in here, the world decided to go completely wild and shut down. We were hit by the CORONAVIRUS (COVID-19) global pandemic, which started to unfold in China in 2019 and brought them to a complete standstill and right when the world was about to move on from the news and dismiss this just like the SARS/Ebola scares, it spread its venom across asia, europe and the Americas and just forced all borders to shut down, brought governments and people to a shocking halt, forced our "ever so social" race to go on a social distancing and masking whirlwind and to learn to build a new way of life. Though not a single soul would wish a pandemic or epidemic or any sickness on anybody, but it did come in the day and age of technology and so it allowed a lot of functions to still go on and about their work, trying to sustain the rest which unfortunately could not function without physical presence. The world also turned to the field of medicine - health (physical and mental) got its moment in the sun, a hot second of limelight, up until vaccination drives started and people started developing more confidence in these and almost going back to the normal that existed Before Corona (BC).
In these moments of complete lockdown, the antisocial keeda in me THRIVED! I made so many videos, tried my hand at various hobbies and skills, developed a love for the art of cooking, and when it felt right, just randomly started an IG page (Instagram, get with it) to document what I was cooking/eating. But the purpose of the page was to microblog. To write random thoughts about that meal or some component in it or that moment. Because I still could not get myself to write a whole-ass blogpost, but also wasn't adept at expressing myself in the 2*2 space that twitter provides.
If you ever discover it (I'm not linking it here), let me just tell you - it's not sequential. I don't document what I'm eating at that moment. The intent is to just post about something that feels right at that moment (could be that very meal or a meal from 4 years ago) and just write. You could extrapolate a bit and say that's my way of journaling. I like to go back to it sometimes and see what I wrote in the spur of the moment, what thoughts I had about that post during that time frame and frame of mind, and that is also another form of introspection.
Yep, that's all. I basically made you (assuming there's anyone but me here) read 6-8 paras about absolutely nothing.
Ookay, bye now. 💜
